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Anxiety and Expectations

I think external expectations (what other people expect of us) dictate levels of anxiety. If others expect me to be a certain way and I want to act a different way, it makes me more anxious. If I'm expected to be shy all the time because that is all others know of me, when I feel a burst of confidence and really feel like I could break free of these anxiety chains, I am held back by expectations.

HOW SOCIAL ANXIETY GETS IN THE WAY...

THE EARTHQUAKE IN HAITI OCCURRED OVER A MONTH AGO AND I STILL HAVE NOT PICKED UP THE PHONE TO CALL MY SISTER (ON MY DAD'S SIDE) TO FIND OUT WHAT IS GOING ON WITH OUR BROTHER WHO WAS IN HAITI AT THE TIME OF THE EARTHQUAKE. LAST I HEARD, HE HAS NOT BEEN ACCOUNTED FOR.

SOCIAL ANXIETY IS THAT SERIOUS. I WILL TRY TO WORK UP THE COURAGE TO CALL THIS WEEKEND! I THINK A LARGE PART OF WHY I DIDN'T CALL IS BECAUSE I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO SAY. ALSO, I AM SO UPSET AT MYSELF FOR NOT KEEPING IN CONTACT WITH MY BROTHER AFTER MY DAD PASSED AWAY IN 2007 (WHEN WE EXCHANGED NUMBERS AT THE FUNERAL, ETC.) I PROMISED TO STAY IN CONTACT BUT ONCE AGAIN MY ANXIETY KEPT ME FROM CALLING.

WHEN WILL I STOP THIS ALREADY. THESE ARE THE MOMENTS THAT MATTER AND ITS ALL PASSING ME BY.

PLEASE OFFER ADVICE.