My brain is tired. I have a headache. My body is in pain. My body is tired. I need a new bed. I really should figure out how to be asleep each night by 11pm instead of my usual after 2am dozing off sessions. I am behind at work b/c I somehow got the task of training another new person. I wasn't forewarned or given any guidelines. I was finally caught up with my client but now I'm lagging behind again. Tomorrow is my conference call...technically later today since its past midnight as I type this. I attended a journalism seminar tonight...it was very informative. My magazine will focus on going digital but will still have print (hard copies) in limited availability for now. My brain is tired. I have a headache. My body is in pain. My body is tired.
Until then,
DOASBW
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Conference Call update, astrology, coffee, magazine
My conference calls have gotten much better...partly b/c I think it can't get any worse than it has in the past (as far as me being put on the spot, etc.). I just learn to deal with it. I'm forced to as I have no choice. I clam up and keep my answers soooo short...I'm pretty sure they think I'm a little standoffish but I'm not...its just that I want the 'spotlight' to be directed at someone else so that I don't feel scrutinized and self conscious.
My client is tough on me but they want more business from the company so this reflects on my work...its a good thing. They are just picky and perfectionists (I'm like that, too so I can understand.)
Things have been getting so hectic at my job...my supervisor is away due to surgery so we are taking on more work. The new lady they hired right before my supervisor left for surgery is having a hard time with her client so my supervisor's supervisor who is my supervisor as well, asked me to take on some of the new lady's work. Keep in mind that I already have the most accounts in my department with my one client, alone, so now I have extra work on top of all that. So far, so good though. I guess this is my opportunity to prove myself even more, if I haven't already done so. This will give me more leverage when negotiating a salary when that time comes around. (I blogged about this issue in a previous blog).
So this is whats going on on the work front. I am still working hard on my magazine launch. I have to "reveal" myself to you all so that I can share more info about my magazine with you all.
Oh and you'll be proud of me...last sunday, I went out for coffee with a friend of mine that I met in Prague last summer. She lives in California and applied to grad school in Chicago and NY so she may end up moving to NY if she gets accepted to the grad school in NY. If she moves to Chicago instead, she'll still be on the east coast so I could possibly visit Chicago to visit. Never been to Chicago but I'd love to someday.
So we had coffee and great conversation about our shared interest - journalism. It was very nice...we met at Joe's Art of Coffee (they say they have the BEST coffee in the world). I had a cappuccino and didn't even sweeten it up and it was very good. For some reason, I thought the cappuccino was already sweetened so my friend and I went to sit on the benches in front of the cafe and when I tasted it, I realized it was not sweetened. (My anxiety disorder is sooooo serious that, would you believe, I was too nervous to tell my friend that I wanted to get sugar for my coffee?! So, I just drank it like that). Its that out of control. Sometimes I clam up for the littlest reasons...something so simple as going back into the cafe to get some sugar made me anxious so I avoided it. Other than that little incident, the entire day was very nice. We spoke for about 2 hours and then we parted ways.
Oh, someone asked me what was my sign...its a question in one of my comments...I have to go back in and find it, but I'm a Gemini. I don't know much about astrology, but aren't Ge
mini's suppose to be wild and fun and confident??? That is why I don't follow astrology...I've never read a horoscope that resonated with me to the point where I felt like I had to read the next one.
My client is tough on me but they want more business from the company so this reflects on my work...its a good thing. They are just picky and perfectionists (I'm like that, too so I can understand.)
Things have been getting so hectic at my job...my supervisor is away due to surgery so we are taking on more work. The new lady they hired right before my supervisor left for surgery is having a hard time with her client so my supervisor's supervisor who is my supervisor as well, asked me to take on some of the new lady's work. Keep in mind that I already have the most accounts in my department with my one client, alone, so now I have extra work on top of all that. So far, so good though. I guess this is my opportunity to prove myself even more, if I haven't already done so. This will give me more leverage when negotiating a salary when that time comes around. (I blogged about this issue in a previous blog).
So this is whats going on on the work front. I am still working hard on my magazine launch. I have to "reveal" myself to you all so that I can share more info about my magazine with you all.
Oh and you'll be proud of me...last sunday, I went out for coffee with a friend of mine that I met in Prague last summer. She lives in California and applied to grad school in Chicago and NY so she may end up moving to NY if she gets accepted to the grad school in NY. If she moves to Chicago instead, she'll still be on the east coast so I could possibly visit Chicago to visit. Never been to Chicago but I'd love to someday.
So we had coffee and great conversation about our shared interest - journalism. It was very nice...we met at Joe's Art of Coffee (they say they have the BEST coffee in the world). I had a cappuccino and didn't even sweeten it up and it was very good. For some reason, I thought the cappuccino was already sweetened so my friend and I went to sit on the benches in front of the cafe and when I tasted it, I realized it was not sweetened. (My anxiety disorder is sooooo serious that, would you believe, I was too nervous to tell my friend that I wanted to get sugar for my coffee?! So, I just drank it like that). Its that out of control. Sometimes I clam up for the littlest reasons...something so simple as going back into the cafe to get some sugar made me anxious so I avoided it. Other than that little incident, the entire day was very nice. We spoke for about 2 hours and then we parted ways.Oh, someone asked me what was my sign...its a question in one of my comments...I have to go back in and find it, but I'm a Gemini. I don't know much about astrology, but aren't Ge
mini's suppose to be wild and fun and confident??? That is why I don't follow astrology...I've never read a horoscope that resonated with me to the point where I felt like I had to read the next one.Saturday, April 11, 2009
Tuesday, April 07, 2009
I'm anxious
My conference call is every Wednesday...tomorrow is Wednesday so I am very nervous. I hate these calls. Wish me luck. I'll give you an update later this week.
Until then...
Until then...
Friday, April 03, 2009
anxiety attack
i had one on wednesday while on a conference call at work. it was so quiet in the office and all you could here was my voice on the call and this made me so self conscious and i choked up. in addition, the conference call, itself, was filled with tension because the client was asking so many detailed questions and i had to answer so many questions and i was trying to answer with the shortest responses so that the attention was off me in the office. it was so hard for me. i felt so sick for the rest of the day until i woke up the following morning.
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