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Friday, November 30, 2007

My novel!!

I'm working on a novel...I've been writing it since Oct 2003 and I am still not even half way done but I'm still loving the storyline. Its loosely based on my life but its far from my life at the same time.

I may go the self publishing route, possibly via LULU.com but I'm not sure yet. I might try to seek out a publisher first.

I will let you know when I am almost done. I am also working on other novels and 2 children's books...more like the preteen age group. I've been working on most of my stories since the 90's so its been a long time coming.

I remember one time I lost a few of my writings and I cried like a baby. My writings mean so much to me and my characters feel like they are relying on me to set them free and breathe life into them.

I never write unless I feel an inner energy that is forcing me and driving me and calling me to write...that is why its taking me soooo long. I can't write unless I feel it so every single line...every single word in my stories were always fueled by a deep emotion or a memory that had to be released or my brain felt as if it would explode.

So, I hope you all will enjoy my stories when they are FINALLY complete.

Until then...

4 comments:

  1. I have been reading your blog for the last week or so and I reeaaally like it! I too am extremely shy. Although I have managed to overcome it a great deal I am still in the process. I am a 22 year old college student, Black, and female and want to desperately rid myself of this anxiety before I get into the "real world". It is extremely hard to deal with. The frustration is almost unbearable at times. But I've been praying to God since I was a little girl about wanting to be like everyone else. I wanted so badly to be social and be popular and have a bunch of friends. I almost stopped having any faith at all because I felt like God wasn't listening to me. However, I started taking chances. Usually I would avoid anything that was unfamiliar. But, I started to MAKE myself do stuff that I had always been afraid to do. And at times I still didn't react the way I had planned in my head and I would feel like I was making a fool out of myself. I wanted to quit and just give up. I cried many, many nights. People didn't really understand. Everyone has some type of issue but when you're shy, it just seems that your issue is more obvious and people will make you feel as such. The only way to really get over shyness is to take risks. You're going to feel uncomfortable and you're probably going to feel stupid but it does get easier. Shyness makes you feel like everything is out of reach. Making friends seems out of reach. Holding conversations with strangers seems to be out of reach. Just looking people in their eyes can feel like its out of reach. BUT IT'S NOT! Anything is possible with God. Our ways are not His ways and sometimes He's just waiting on us to take a chance. If I can go from being the girl who people didn't even think could talk, nervous around everyone, never looking people in the eyes, only smiling never responding to questions, never standing up for myself to performing Spoken Word in front of masses of people that I wrote myself...Anything is possible!!! I've been writing poetry since I was in high school but I never thought about reading it to people. But the church I am a member of started a spoken word team and although I wrote poetry, I never thought of it as something that I could actually share with people because it's so personal. But speaking something that is on my mind has been soooo liberating. And it feels sooo good. You should definitely try it. I recommend that you find a GOOD church and lock into God's purpose for your life. That's what helped me. It's difficult I know. Even church people aren't very understanding at times. But keep in mind that you have a purpose, you may not know what it is because of the shyness, but just believe that God created you for a reason. He knew that you would struggle with this. He knew the pain that it would cause. But He still has good plans for you. Just don't be afraid to be different. It takes time to overcome shyness but I believe that you can completely overcome it!!! I'm still in the process. I still cry because of the frustration. I still get angry with myself when I pass up social situations because of my phobia. I still have trouble looking people in the eye. I still have a hard time talking to people that I don't know very well. The point is I keep trying because I know that life has to get better! Please, let's keep in touch. I have a blog too however I don't discuss my shyness on it because I really didn't know where to start. But plese check it out, it's soreway.blogspot.com
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  2. Thank you so much. I am going to try to contact you via your blog!!!! You just gave me soooo much motivation.
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  3. Yes! Your book will change even more lives than you already have, for sure!
    Keep up the good... everything!
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