Updates

I haven't lost much weight. Actually I lost about 10 pounds and gained it back and now I lost 1.1 pounds.

I cut my hair and now it is starting to puff out again. YEAH!!!! I think its only just over an inch long but before it was probably half an inch. It grows so lush and gorgeous in its natural state but I'm still trying to combat my thin hairline that happened due to tight braids. RUN ON SENTENCE FOR SURE.

I am such a perfectionist and worry wort that I am constantly late for work. This is horrid. I fuss with myself in the mirror so long and feel nothing is ever right and I get so anxious about riding the train and going to work. My anxieties continue to get the best of me.

I am creating my own anti anxiety plan and if it works I will share it. I will do a step by step plan and I will not move to the next step until I have completely researched/practiced/approved the current step and so on and so forth.

I'm still working on my magazine.

I am trying to decide what I want to focus on for graduate school and I will start applying soon. I just have some loose ends to fix with my undergrad college.

I am going to also work on a vlog and share that with you all later.

My boyfriend has been inviting me to visit his brother in Pennsylvania for months now and I am tooo nervous and now his brother has basically stopped asking us to come. He probably thinks I don't want to come. I do want to but I'm way to panicky. Plus its all the way in Pa and I will be far from home so its not like I could say "I have to go home" and leave on my own. I would need to have them drive me back and deal with the awkwardness on the full ride back.