I'm working overtime at work this evening. My boss left at 5 so I am able to write a little more than last time. I have not been staying at home (at my mom's much) so I don't really have a pc to use. I've been staying out but don't want to get into details abut that right now. I want to move ASAP. Its depressing being back home at the age of 29, you know? Plus my mom has the same strict rules and policies for me as she did when I was 10 years younger. I am going to an open house for an apartment on saturday, and from there i am going to check out a car w/ my boyfriend.

The process for finding an apartment was so much easier in Arizona. My boyfriend keeps talking about how he misses it out there. I do too but I'm not ready to go back. I have a lot to do in NY, I just need to Do it!!!

I'm looking over my shoulder from time to time as I write b/c there are still a few people left in the office.

Lately, I have been getting noticed a lot more by men. Its because I have lost about 17 lbs since moving back to NY and I haven't even been exercising or eating better. I'm walking more and going up and down subway stairs more but thats the nature of living in the city. I am planning a complete makeover...one that will be more sophisticated for me yet not "old" looking, if you will. I am thinking about getting a weave or cutting my hair into a short classic Halle Berry a la' 90's hairdo. Not sure which yet. I want to lose at least 30 more lbs by June. That's feasible. And I am slowly building a new wardrobe. Most of my clothes are black or brown and I need more variation in my life now. More color. I borrowed a striped beige and black scarf from my brother and traded my black one and it immediately "woke up" my look!

I am waiting on my laptop to arrive!!!!! I'm excited about that. That is my first real big purchase ever. I am also going to start studying the drivers handbook and take the test soon!!

I am looking to take an acting class still and still looking for a CBT (cognitive behavioral therapist))

I want you all to ask me questions about anything and I'll answer them all!!

Love you all for being there for me...if it were not for this blog...I'd be in serious trouble.

Until then...