So today is Saturday. I woke up bright and early to get ready for a teleprompter class that I registered for at an Acting studio out here. I paid 75.00 for the class about 2-3 weeks ago and I was very ecstatic about attending but this morning, I was anxious and ecstatic.
I ignored my anxiety as best as I could and proceeded to get ready. After, I started doing what I always do to avoid social situations...I started mentally going through the excuses as to why I could not make it. I don't have a ride (which is true)...I could call a cab but this place is over 14 miles away and it may cost me too much(which is true)...I thought of every possible reason for me not to go.
Class started 17 minutes ago and I am still home. Now it is really too late for me to call a cab and even find out whether or not it would have cost me too much. I feel so horrible. This class is very important to me. I have always wanted to take a class at an acting studio and I never have. This was my 1st step. What makes it worse is that after the teleprompter class there is going to be a free intro to acting class workshop which would have been perfect to ease my tensions for the day I do sign up for an acting class.
I should just throw my acting dreams away. If I don't have the guts to actually do whatever it takes to get my ass to this teleprompter class...I will never make it.
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